Friday, December 29, 2006

Fairy Grandmother-The Parting Shot

Long time readers of this blog know that I've been struggling for years with the completion of MLI's Fairy Grandmother. It was a gift for my Mamaw, it represents everything she has been in my life. On December 23, 2006 my grandmother passed away. Fairy Grandmother went with her. I folded it up and tucked it in her casket. It seemed the right thing to do. I wasn't going to finish it because it would always be a reminder that she never got to see it completed. There's no way I would ever give it to anyone else. It was 100% for her and her alone. So what you see below is the final goodbye shot of Fairy Grandmother.
I would love to write more about my grandmother but the pain is still too new. At the funeral people would come up to me and I couldn't remember their names. I would say to myself, I need to remember to ask Mamaw who this or that person was. I started to call her on more than one occaision over the last few days to ask her about so and so. Her phone number is still in my cell phone. Maybe if I leave it there, the last few days will be a bad dream. The hurt and sadness will be around for a very long time. This woman was everything to me. I have so many regrets. I quit calling her as often as I used to because every conversation would somehow end up on the subject of my not going to church. I know it hurt it that I gave up on church a long time ago and she worried so much about my salvation and that of my kids. It was so important to her. I didn't want to hurt her any more so it was easier to just not pick up the phone and call.
I was lucky, I did get to say goodbye. Three weeks ago I called her, she didn't sound right. I had a bad feeling. I had to keep telling her who I was. My first thought when I hung up the phone was "this is the last time I'll talk to her". I didn't think she was going to die but I felt like she'd never know who I was again. Right after that phone call she had a stroke and was hospitalized. She couldn't talk on the phone, wouldn't have anything to do with the phone. I was glad I said what I needed to say when I had the chance.

15 comments:

Suzanne said...

Sorry to hear of your grandma's passing. I think it was perfect that you sent Fairy Grandmother with her.

KarenV said...

I'm so sorry about your grandma Melissa {{{hugs}}} Sending Fairy Grandmother with her was definitely the right thing to do.

Missy said...

Oh, Melissa, I am so sorry to read about your Grandma. (((hugs)))

What a touching story about the Fairy Godmother project. I think that I would have done the same thing.

Kendra said...

Oh I'm so sorry to read about the loss of your Mamaw. I'm sure she'll enjoy having Fairy Grandmother with her.

(((HUGS)))

Anna van Schurman said...

Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry. I remember working on that project with you during the Olympics. I think your gesture was beautiful.

claudia said...

I am so sorrry to hear of your loss. It was good to send Fairy Grandmother with her. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sue said...

Melissa-
I am so sorry about your grandmother's passing. I think what you did with Fairy Grandmother was just wonderful, it was a very thoughtful and touching thing to do. {{{hugs}}}

Lee said...

I'm thinking of you.

barbara in tennessee said...

I'm so sorry to read about your grandmother. I'm sure she loves her Fairy Grandmother.

andrea said...

Melissa, I am so sorry to hear about your Mammaw passing away....my heart goes out to you.
Hugs

Bronzemom said...

My deepest sympathies on your loss. God Bless and keep you.

Carol said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Melissa. That was a good thing to do with Fairy Grandmother.

Michelle said...

I am so sorry to hear about your Grandmother. I think you definitely did the right thing sending Fairy Grandmother with her - it sent with her all of your love for her. My thoughts are with you ((hugs)).

Meari said...

Oh, so sorry to hear about your grandmother's passing. ((hugs))

Anne S said...

I'm so sorry I missed the news about your Grandmother until today - I'm supposed to have marked all past posts as read, but I couldn't resist taking a peek back into a few blogs. Your post about sending Fairy Grandmother on its way was very touching, and gave me goosebumps. {{hugs}}