At my major meltdown point I was emailing my friends Sharon and Siobhan, crying, trying hard to get over myself, and I had to wonder how women a hundred years ago got through it? We have vacuum cleaners, we have Swiffer mops, we have washers and dryers, we have Kitchenaid mixers, ok some of us have those-not me but I do have a really good hand mixer, how did women do it? How did they handle everything they had to handle and keep their sanity? So many alone on the prairie or on mountian tops, what got them through? Was it knowing that it just had to be done and it was their job? We have just about every modern convenience known to man. I mean I can email my friend in Ireland to whine about my horrible, "I'm just going to go stick my head in the oven now" day, and those women had to wait months or even years just to get a letter from home. How did they make it? I thought about that a lot yesterday afternoon when I finally gave up, let my world come crashing down around me, surrendered to it all, everything that went wrong was not the most important thing in the world, everything was eventually fixable, maybe not immediately but eventually.
This morning I woke up, went outside to the front porch, started my woe is me crying again, because it was going to be another day of can this or that be fixed, can it be done now, can I just go to Publix and drown my sorrows and woes in a Key Lime Pie and feel better already, kind of day but I looked up in the sky, the clouds were moving slowly across my house, a rainbow was there among the clouds. It hadn't been raining anywhere near my house, but there was a bow in the clouds. It was a sign, a sign from my Mamaw and Papaw to get over myself, to deal with it, to get on with it. It was a sign that everything was going to be ok. Why was a mysterious, unexplainable rainbow such an obvious sign from my grandparents? Well I was a Rainbow girl, my grandmother was in Eastern Star and my Papaw, he was one of the most loyal members of the Masonic Lodge you might ever find. There was no doubt in my mind that that rainbow was my hug, my "It's going to be ok", the kiss on my forehead, and that tight grip on my arms, that look straight in my eye and the words, "You do what you have to do and get it done, and quit crying because it's absolutely not the end of the world. You are strong and you can deal with anything." I really needed that bow in the clouds this morning. Even if everything isn't ok today, if I haven't fixed what was broken, I know I'll be ok. I do believe in signs.
Now for some fun--Billy Bowlegs and his pirates came ashore over the weekend in Ft Walton Beach, fought the residents and won. They took over the town and flew their flags down mainstreet. Can you believe some folks in the local paper complained about something more worthwhile being celebrated than pirates? Sheesh, people, have some fun, get over yourselves!
This heron amused the spousal unit and myself a whole lot Sunday morning. It's time I kitted up Crossed Wing Collections Great Blue Heron and got to work on it. I love these birds.
I meant to zoom in on his/her beak, she's got a fish in there. No she didn't dive for it, a guy fishing on the pier would catch a fish and toss it to her. She/he would practically walk up to the fisherman and stick her/his beak in the guys lap wanting more fish. It was great!
This is the middle son, a.k.a. whiniest 16 yr old on the planet, at the beach on Sunday afternoon. Why is he whiney? He sprained his ankle skateboarding. You would think his leg is broken in ten places the way he was carrying on. On a positive note, it does show how very few times the kid has actually felt real pain in his whole 16 yrs. How many times did I sprain something or skin something before I was 16? I was always crashing my bike--anyone else fly over the handle bars the first time they rode on their new ten speed because ya forgot to check which brake was front and which was back? Well, DS#2 has had very few skinned knees much less a sprain of any kind so this was big to him.